Its just so hard :)

So tomorrow we get to go see who Braxten's teacher for kindergarten is! I am soooo sad, I am also so very happy and excited for him but I can't help but to be worried out of my mind! I have these tiny worries as well as my big worries. He is just so small, and if someone is mean to him I will just die! BUT I know that even though I am the only one who has ever gone through this and my child is the only one that has ever had a first day :) its just so sad to think that my tiny little bug is already 5 and that he is going into the big bad world already!!! I know that everything is going to be fine and that he is going to have so much fun, I mean I loved school so much! It was so much fun, so I am happy for this new step in his life, BUT it doesn't mean that I don't stay awake at night thinking and worrying about all the what if's... the how is he going to know.... Will they teach him... And all that fun stuff! Its just.... Life and even if I feel like I haven't taught him all that I feel I need to, I have to send him out anyway and trust in myself as well as him!! Monday is the big day, I took the whole day off work so that I can be an emotional wreck, not really, but I will cry I am sure (no not in front of him, he is going to have a blast!) anyway... So there it is...